My Experience As A Favor Runner

If you’re in the DFW area you’ve probably seen a lot of people running around with blue tuxedo T-Shirts and may be wondering what it’s all about. Those people my friends are Favor Runners. Literally. Favor is an app where you can have someone deliver pretty much anything you need to your house or office. It’s kinda like an UberEats or InstaCart to name a few similar apps, but not limited to food.

I thought it would be fun to share what it’s like to do one of these “get cash quick” type of apps. Here’s my Experience:

When I first signed up, I had to go through an hour orientation. While there they told me about what to expect, the do’s and don’ts, what I would be doing, and what I need to do to be successful as a runner. I also bought by Favor gear so I would be ready to hit the road.

Another thing that I didn’t know, and probably others don’t know, is that they do background checks and see if you’ve had any driving tickets within the last 36 months or so. I think this is really important so you can be comfortable knowing that not just any strange person is able to drive for the company and come to your house to deliver food or whatever else you may need.

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The cool thing is, is that you can start doing runs that same day as long as you have passed the background check. You also have to download the app while you’re in the office and verify your banking information before you can do your first run. For me, I decided to start the next day, but I did download the app and have everything verified the day before.

For my first run, I had a food order as expected. I did my favors in the Addison/Richardson and North Central Dallas areas that day and let me tell you I had a good time! It was actually fun for me calling in the orders and delivering them while texting the customers with updates and questions.

The way Favor does the customer service experience makes you feel like each order is personal rather than a number. You get their name and phone number just as if you’re a personal assistant. Which is the mind set they want you to have.

I enjoy the fact that I have the full ability to customize the messages I send, where I complete my favors, and my schedule. It makes things hassle free and flexible just the way I like.

Another cool thing is that you get a minimum of $2 per tip plus 35% ($2.10) of the delivery fee. This guarantees you $4.10 a run. So even if for some reason your customer doesn’t have the best experience (which hopefully they will) you will still get a tip. The other great thing is if you commit to a scheduled time you’ll get $9 per hour guaranteed. So even if you don’t get any favors you’ll still be paid.

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Favor is honestly the fastest and easiest way to earn money that I have personally ever experienced. You get paid every day according to what days you have chosen to run. It’s also very easy to talk to their support team and they’ll even check on you themselves too to make sure everything is going well. I think this is a nice personal touch and reminds me that they care.

So far my customers have been really nice, understanding, and have tipped very well. That helps me out considering I need the extra cash for personal reasons. There are times where I’ve had a difficult experience with stores, but it’s nothing that couldn’t be solved.

The Favor Runner app tracks statistics too. You can keep up with how many favors you’ve done for the day, week, and month. You’ll also see how customers have rated you with a total of 5 stars. In the app you can see your schedule and customize it too. It’s also a good way to keep track of how much you’ve earned and the amount of time you spend on each favor.

When you’re actually doing a run you should keep the app open. The app will be a great way to make calls to the stores or even the customer. You can also text your customer with your pre-made template through the app.

Favor has what they call a hot spot. These spots are visible in the Runner app so you know where to go to get the most favor orders or the better chance of getting an order. I always like to take the directions to the hot spot because 9 out of 10 times while I’m on my way I get an order the closer I get to it.

The other thing I want to mention is the early assignments option. This will get you double assignment so when you’re close to finishing one order you’ll get your next one to head straight to afterward. I like it because it is good for time and money.

The other great thing about favor is that they give you the option on whether or not you want to deliver alcohol. Even if you don’t deliver it (like me) you still get decent sized orders with good tips to go along with them. I personally don’t deliver alcohol because there are a lot of rules and regulations that go along with it that I just don’t have time for.

The gear has actually been worth buying too. It keeps the food either hot or cold just like they said and makes it easier to carry the items around.

I haven’t had too many none food orders, but the ones I did have weren’t complicated or anything. The only problem I have sometimes is trying to find people’s houses or even the stores if they’re kind of hidden.

Overall, within just a couple of days, I’ve made over $200 and use the app Everlance to track my mileage for an income tax write off during tax season. If you forget about downloading the Everlance app, Favor will recommend it to you again at your orientation.

It seems that Favor really cares not only about its customers, but its drivers too. Ordering from them has been great and driving for them has been even better. I recommend anyone who is interested in earning quick cash and doing a driving service try Favor first. You won’t be disappointed.

Use my code and start running: Paige R. invited you to Run with Favor! Apply today!

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Love Hurts | Reflection

The thing harder than falling into love has to be falling out. If you think about it, your whole world changes drastically. No longer can you reach out and share moments with that lover or they comfort you when times get hard. This time they caused a hard time and there is nothing you can do about it.

Here I am, yet, again going through a gut-wrenching breakup. I may be doing dramatic, but this is a tough pill to swallow and hurts like hell.  I really thought things were going to be different with him and it hurts that he is literally the same as every other guy I’ve dated in the past. I honestly don’t even know where things started to go wrong. Maybe I’m just that much in the clouds to where I don’t see what is truly going on around me. We went from one day of him introducing me to his family and us spending every day together to me reminding him of his ex so he wants to call it quits.

The good news is I’ll eventually be okay. This is not a death sentence although it may feel that way and it isn’t the end of the world. He’s not the only man I will love in my life and certainly not the last. In fact, he met me when I had things end with another ex. It’s almost like the circle of life.

I still can’t get over the fact that I truly thought we were going to last. How stupid of me to believe and hope for a change in something where I don’t have all of the control. I forgot there was another brain and feelings making the decision for me. I forgot that there was the possibility we wouldn’t be in sync. I forgot. The 23-year-old dreamer forgot to only be an optimist and not put all of her eggs in the basket. Trust me it will happen again unless I remember to remind myself and that is perfectly okay.

I’ve learned that even through these hard times it doesn’t affect your value and you can still hold your head high. So here I am. With my heart broken, but my head held high ready to conquer love and not let this experience turn me negative because I deserve so much more than that. We all deserve so much more than that.

The next time you find yourself hurt by love, let me tell you that you’re not alone. You will get through this and everything will be okay. Your optimism will pay off in due time and you can’t let the negativity of one bad event change your whole outlook. There will be someone different who rocks your world and reminds you of why you had to go through this eventually. At least this is what I hope for myself and for you.

So it’s true, when all is said and done, grief is the price we pay for love. – E.A. Bucchianeri, Brushstrokes of a Gadfly

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Learning To Let Go | Reflection

I’ve been thinking a lot about what I deserve and don’t deserve. Sometimes that ends up involving other people especially when it comes to relationships. I realized that it is so true when they say you teach people how to treat you, and it is important to have self-love and be assertive at all times.

It’s Not The End of the World

Over time you start to realize that just because one door closes there is always another door just waiting to be opened. That is something I’ve had to personally learn in growing as an adult and developing my character as a human being. It’s so easy to feel like life is over and that you’ll never find something or someone as good as what you had.

To me, that is romanticizing. I guarantee once you find the right something or someone you’ll find out that you didn’t really have it as good as you thought. It also goes to show you how our memory isn’t that good. It’s always playing tricks on us and making us think things were better than they actually were.

No worries though. We’ve all been there before. Coming to terms with let’s say a job or relationship isn’t the ultimate sign that you’ve made it and have nothing else once those are gone is no way to live. There is always something or someone better. God or the universe didn’t make our purpose to stick with the first thing to find us.

Love Yourself First

I can’t stress enough how important self-love and self-care are. When you show love and care for yourself you don’t have time to allow anyone to treat you less than you deserve. You will stand up for yourself even if you’re standing alone and will hold up your beliefs regardless of what others say.

It’s so easy to put others or their opinions before yourself but don’t do that. You deserve to be your own biggest support. Loving yourself doesn’t mean you can’t love others, but it does mean that you will make sure you’re taken care of.

It’s not selfish. It is a necessary part of life because if you don’t put yourself first then who will? Having a great opinion of yourself and knowing exactly what you stand for makes all the difference in the world. I’m personally to the point that if my assertiveness makes you uncomfortable then you need to move around and out of my face.

You Won’t Have to Force It

When something or someone is meant for you, you won’t have to force it. I am a true believer in everything falling into place at the right time.

The best relationship I’ve had came naturally and I never felt like I had to force to get his attention or get him to show interest. That’s how you know it’s real and meant to be. When someone is consistently having you beg and fight for their attention then you need to let them go. They’re not for you and there will be someone who is.

When it comes to relationships there should be a mutual effort and respect. When someone doesn’t respect you it usually shows in their efforts toward you. We’ve all wanted someone so bad that we ignored the signs that they just weren’t that into us.

In return, we’re left hurt and confused as to why they didn’t feel we were good enough. I’m here to tell you that you are good enough. It truly is them and not you!

I had to learn that the hard way, but the reward of finally being with someone who does care and shows the effort I deserve is so much more rewarding. If anything it makes you that much more grateful when things do start to go right with the right guy or girl.

Don’t Sweat the Small Stuff

This is still a struggle for me. I tend to be on the dramatic side, but I’m getting there. Sweating the small stuff makes things worse 9 out of 10 times.

When you meet someone who sweats the small stuff there is usually perfectionism that drives this force underneath the surface. I’m learning that being perfect isn’t worth the superficial relationships you form and the cost of your peace of mind.

All perfectionism does is make you feel worse and like it’s the end of the world when shit falls apart. Not everything is going to be perfect and not everything is meant to be perfect as well.

People aren’t perfect and you have to accept them for who they are. You’re not perfect and you have to accept yourself for who you are. If you’re still trying to find out who that is, that is that is perfectly okay because most of us are.

Learning to let go can happen in all types of instances in life. You have to know which battles to choose and what is worth fighting for. One battle you should know is that you are always worth fighting for.

Through it all there is light at the end of the tunnel. You’ll find that someone or something that sends you to the moon and back.

Learning to just let go and cease the perfectionism can make a world of a difference in how you view yourself and interact with others. Also, it is never worth staying with someone or in something who makes you feel small and insecure. If you’re feeling like you are constantly putting in the effort with nothing in return, you’re probably right. That is a huge warning sign and you need to get the hell out while you can. My challenge for you is to let go, be assertive and love yourself unconditionally.

Veteran’s Day | Guest Post

Veteran’s Day.

This day means a lot to so many people. It is a day to honor those who served this country, both in the past and present. It is a day that we feel immense pride in being American, in living in a place known for its freedoms—freedoms that have been fought for and earned time and time again, thanks to veterans.

For me, it’s always been a day in which I can commemorate my grandfather, Mar Arradaza—or shall I say Captain Mar Arradaza—who served in the US Army during World War II. I grew up hearing stories of my grandfather, of how he fought bravely in the Philippines in one of the bloodiest, most pivotal conflicts this world has ever seen. Of how he’d escaped from being a POW three times (I’ve endearingly started joking that if there was one thing my grandpa was good at, it was escaping), one of those times being from the Bataan Death March where up to 18,000 Filipinos were estimated to have died.

He’d been face to face with death several times, and yet each time he managed to escape its grasp. He ended up living a long life and died at the age of eighty-nine in his home with a legacy of ten children and twenty-four grand-children left behind him.

When I honor my Grandpa Mar, I tend to think mostly of the glory of his achievements. To me, he was almost larger than life. He was a war hero.

However, oftentimes I forget that these achievements didn’t come without great sacrifice. He might have escaped death during the war, but that doesn’t mean he escaped fully intact. Most who come back from war rarely ever do.

You see, my grandfather suffered from PTSD.

It wasn’t until decades after he retired that they’d finally diagnosed him. Most of my memories of my grandfather were good, peaceful memories, and most of his grandchildren could likely say the same. However, my mother, my grandmother, and many of my aunts and uncles had far different experiences.

They say he was excessively strict growing up, bordering on cruel. He was easily irate and would punish his children far too easily and perhaps far too much. For much of their lives, many of them feared him; some even grew to resent him. This is not to mention his treatment of my grandmother—his wife—who would often experience his wrath in full force. Hardly any of his family would have described him as a kind man in the past.

No one really thought that his behavior was a result of his time in the war until he had a psychiatric evaluation as an elderly man. When they diagnosed him as suffering from PTSD, it suddenly clicked for my mother, the why for his behavior: the war had scarred him far more permanently than anyone had ever imagined. By this point, however, the resulting collateral damage to his family had been done. His children and his wife had perhaps been able to forgive him in time, but the scars would forever remain.

 

Though he had always been the most memorable veteran in my family, my Grandpa Mar was not the only one. In fact, on both sides, I have aunts, uncles, cousins, and even my brother who have served or are currently serving in the military. Often, I tend to forget my other grandfather, Grandpa Jesus (pronounced the Spanish way, “hay-soos”) had also served.

Growing up, though I’d still been proud, my younger self-hadn’t been quite as impressed hearing about Grandpa Jesus’s time serving. He’d been a cook in the US Navy during the 50’s. Unlike Grandpa Mar, he hadn’t served in WWII, hadn’t seen combat, and had been medically discharged within years of him joining the navy. He also never really had any stories that I remember him telling us about his time serving.

I’d always heard that he’d become schizophrenic while in the navy which had ultimately led to his discharge, that it had something to do with government experimentation, but I’d always brushed off these stories as conspiracies. After all, every memory I have of my grandfather was him sitting in his wooden chair in the corner of the kitchen, smoking and listening to the radio.

There was nothing to me that indicated that he was “crazy”, and I figured if this experimentation was true, surely I would have heard about it in my history class, or there would be some kind of letter from some politician lying around reading something along the lines of, “Hey, sorry we made you take some weird drugs that would mess up your mind for the rest of your life, that was absolutely inhumane of us to do and was totally our bad.”

It wasn’t until much later that I realized that these “conspiracies” were actually way more substantiated than I thought. There are plenty of instances between the 50’s and 60’s in which soldiers were experimented on by the government, oftentimes without the soldiers’ consent. In the 60’s, Project SHAD (Shipboard Hazard and Defense) was specifically conducted on U.S. warships, where biological and chemical warfare agents were sprayed over these ships in order to “determine how well service members aboard military ships could detect and respond to chemical and biological attacks.”

While it’s too late to prove whether my grandfather’s schizophrenia was truly a result of whatever the government did to him, regardless they took responsibility for it. Well, what responsibility they could while still being classified at the time. When he was medically discharged, he received full medical benefits for the rest of his life, as has been given to many other victims of human experimentation by the US government since. Unfortunately, he would very much be in need of those medical benefits for most of his retirement.

This was something I did not find out until recently, along with many other things about my grandfather during his lifelong recuperation.

I had not known about the voices my grandfather would hear, urging him to do violent things to his family. I had not known about how there were several instances where he almost did act on these thoughts, resulting in him being hospitalized for months at a time. I had not known that it wasn’t until they started injecting him with his medication that he finally seemed to get better, which is why most of my memories of him seem so much saner. Normal.

Grandpa Jesus died in 2007, on Independence Day to be exact, and like my Grandpa Mar, left behind a large family that loved him. And yet, the impact my grandfather’s mental illness had on his family was lasting. My father, as well as supposedly many of his siblings, are still traumatized. Like with my mother’s family, he may be forgiven, but the wounds still run deep.

I may have different memories of my grandfathers, but their impacts on both me and their families run parallel. I am glad that I was able to experience much brighter times with them, to be able to see them at peace, without the demons in their heads. However, now that I know what they each were dealing with, it breaks my heart to see how their personal suffering affected their families in the long run. I am proud to say that both of my grandfathers were veterans, but unfortunately, I cannot do so without acknowledging that they paid a heavy price.

When men and women serve our country, we sometimes don’t realize the extent of which they give themselves to do so. Mental illness is not something we tend to immediately think about when we think of what our soldiers and veterans go through to do their duties and keep us safe, yet it is most prevalent among them. Studies have shown that at least a quarter of non-deployed military members suffer from at least one mental health disorder, while suicide remains one of the leading causes of death among veterans and active duty military. The numbers only continue to grow, and people are only finally trying to understand why this is occurring.

It is for this reason that this Veteran’s Day I would like to honor these men and women for continuously putting not only their bodies but their sanity on the line for us. I also encourage you all to thank a veteran as well as anyone currently still in the military for all that they sacrifice of themselves to complete their duty. I can only hope we will continue to educate ourselves about this and make an effort to improve the mental health and wellness of our veterans, because they deserve to live a life of peace after all that they endure.

By Veronica Valera AKA @lifeofnicah

 

 

 

Reflection | 4 Signs You Need to Change Jobs

    I hope changing jobs is the least of your concerns right now, but if it is a concern then don’t feel bad at all. There are so many people out in the world that are not happy with their jobs and need a change. They stay out of obligations either in or out of their control.
    The point I’m trying to make with all this is you’re NOT ALONE! If you are finding yourself having the itch to make a career or job change, but are having trouble finding the courage to do it; then I hope this helps you out:

Morale is Dead

    There is nothing worse than coming to a job and not believing in the companies values or feeling like you’re not making a difference. If it goes against your morals or you don’t believe in the values then move along there is nothing for you there. You will likely resent going and participating in a corrupt culture every day.
 
    In return will start affecting the way you see yourself. We definitely don’t want that!

Burn Out/Mental Health

    This is a serious issue and concern for America today and I’m guessing other countries as well. Please take care of yourself! There is no amount of money that can replace your life. So if you find yourself mentally and emotionally drained to where a vacation can’t fix the burnout – that means you need to go!
 
    Trust me on this one. They will replace you in a heartbeat not even long enough for your casket to have weeds grow out of it. To them, you’re a number, and if you’re not seen as a number then lucky you, you should stay.
    But for most of us, the reality is we are only a number and they care about us making them money. You can die at a miserable job if you want to, or you can take care of yourself. Why not do something you love so it won’t feel like you’re working?
    I know this isn’t usually a realistic route. But, if it can be a reality for you go get that dream job and make it happen. I promise you from experience it is worth it in the end.

You Aren’t Enjoying it

    There’s no better buzzkill like going day after day to a job you don’t enjoy. I kind of referenced to this in my last statement, but I’ll say it again. You want to work somewhere that you are at least content with.
    It doesn’t have to be rays of sunshine and unicorns, but it does have to be tolerable to where you don’t hate life. It’s worth the investment if you’re going to spend 40 plus hours there. Like the job’s time is important, yours is too and don’t let anyone tell you different!

Not Paying the Bills

    If this job is doing all the above and not making ends meet, oh honey, you need to get out of there faster than a New York second! The stress from the job and not being able to pay bills like you want will absolutely drive you crazy. There is no reason to stay.
    Get your all your ducks in a row to find that better paying job and put your two weeks in yesterday. This is pretty self-explanatory on why you shouldn’t stay.
    Finances are one of the leading causes of depression. As we discussed before, your mental health is important and part of what sustains you. If your brain isn’t functioning you won’t either!
 

Are You Convinced?

    If you relate to any of two out of the four, I suggest you start to consider changing jobs or even career paths. In my opinion, it would be beneficial for you. If you were looking for a sign – here it is! I’m tired of people thinking that work is equivalent to unhappiness because it truly doesn’t have to be.
    You have control of your life and choose what makes you happy. You also choose what you’ll put up with. Stop the complaining, look for that new career, and start living the life you imagined for yourself on a job that doesn’t make you or your life miserable.

Reflection | ReBranded: Goodbye Food For Thought; Hello to Turning The Page

Welcome to Turning The Page by Paige Redwine! You’re probably wondering what was wrong with Food For Thought, and the answer is nothing major. Yet, I still felt inclined to rebrand myself, and with that meant changing my brand’s name. So come along with me as we embark on this new journey called turning the page!

The Meaning Behind The Name:

“Turning The Page” encompasses not only the theme of this blog, but also the point I want to get across: I am an evolving young woman who’s story isn’t over yet.

“Food For Thought” just didn’t quit grasps this message the way I wanted it to. Initially, when you hear the name it sounds like this should be a food blog which is definitely misleading. I meant food metaphorically, but you probably wouldn’t know that unless you look at the content of my blog or ask me directly.

I like “Turning The Page” because, as I said earlier, it gives a lifestyle vibe and it is very versitle in my opinion. I feel like it could be anything from maybe she likes books (which I do, do reviews on some and do poetry so I’m okay with this misconception) or maybe it’s a metaphor for her life continuing and that each page is an unique contribution to her chapter (age), and to the story (my life as a whole).

That is what I want people to think when they see my name not about when their next meal is going to be so they better go get a snack, and then forget to read the posts. Of course, this is a little dramatic, but you get the point I’m making.

Recently, I have gone through tons of life changes and discovery so I want my page to reflect that, and to reflect me.

Will My Content Change?

To keep it short and sweet, no. You’ll still get lifestyle, poetry, reviews, tutorials, and more. Of course, I want to continue to get better at my writing, but I figure that will come with time and critique from you guys. So as far as I’m concerned at this time, my content will only change in that aspect. 🙂

 

 

Reflection | Why I Started Blogging

I don’t know if any of you ever wonder or even care why, but I thought it would be a good idea to share with y’all why I started blogging. Honestly, there are a million reasons I can think of, but today I’ll just go over these top five.

Journalism Major

The first reason is that I was made for this! I was a journalism major when I was doing my undergraduate studies at the University of North Texas. An interesting thing about that is that I actually didn’t start off as a journalism major but was a marketing major. I toyed with the idea before I applied and ended up going against it for whatever reasoning I had at the time.

I quickly had a change of heart after my first semester of having to take dreadful accounting. I’m hoping that once I start making enough money I can just hire someone or find really good software to do the accounting portion of the business for me because I definitely don’t enjoy it.

I honestly only barely passed that class by God’s grace and nothing else! Like the greats have said, “stick to your day job and what you know.” I plan to definitely take this advice to heart and execute it with pride!

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Career Change – Freelance Writer

As you may know, if you’ve read my perfectionism issue blog post, I used to be an auto claims adjuster. Although at times I really enjoyed the job and enjoyed working with the people in the office it had serious drawbacks.

Claims handling has to be one of the most stressful jobs you can ever have and I give mad props to anyone who can stick it out and do it with grace and ease, but I couldn’t. Essentially with all the negativity I eventually snapped and let’s just leave it at that so I wanted a serious change.

Not only for my peace of mind but my overall health. I had gotten to 98 pounds, but I digress. What better change would there have been knowing my background than to go into freelance for writing!?

I’m still starting out, but the main goal out of this career change is to become a freelance writer and have my own business all the while being involved in Children’s Ministry and counseling to kiddos. However, I’ll talk about what being successful in this looks like for me another day and more about my graduate studies.

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Not New to Blogging – Tumblr

What do you know, I’ve done blogging before on a less professional scale. I used to have a Tumblr back in grade school that I would just write and reblog things on. I’ve completely forgotten what my username was and that page has long since been taken down, but I say all this to say I’m not a spring chicken to having a blog.

Now the other aspects of blogging like making money out of it I’m definitely new to, but I’m so, so excited to learn and develop as a writer and hardworking professional.

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Passion for The Art

I wouldn’t be a writer if I didn’t have a passion for something! My passion happens to include just the very act of writing whether that be writing an article like this one, writing in my journal offline or writing poetry; I love to do it all! Ever since I was a little girl I had a niche for writing. I would always score the highest in English and well like I said, I ended up graduating college with a journalism degree. I love writing and writing seems to love me.

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Hobbies

So let’s say I don’t end up making this a career and just stick with what I’m studying now in graduate school, Children’s Ministry and counseling. Well, this will still be a great hobby to have. I love talking to Y’all and sharing my life whether that be my thoughts or literally what I’ve been up to it doesn’t matter again I love it all.

This is so therapeutic for me that it really doesn’t matter how much I make doing it I”m just happy to be doing it. I know you could have read any blog on WordPress or the Internet, yet you’re reading mine so for that I’ll be forever grateful and thankful.

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Conclusion

Well, there you have it. Those are my reasons for starting Food for thought by Paige Redwine. I still have a ways to go, but I feel with my dedication and your faithful reading we can make this great and enjoyable for us both!

Thank you so much for taking the time to read and I hope you find it in your interest to come back and read more soon! I try to post at least 2 to 3 times a week if not more. Also if you blog, comment on why you started blogging or if you don’t, why you don’t do it. Either way, I want to know 🙂

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Reflection | Top 10 Things You Didn’t Know About Me

  1. I’ve only been out of the country once in my whole 23 years of living. (Shout out to Jamaica and Mexico!)
  2. I graduated college in the states in 3 years. (I give all the credit to Summer School. I’m conflicted on whether that should be a yuck or yay)
  3. I have a green belt in Taekwondo and sometimes I think about enrolling again to get to my black belt, but then again…
  4. Just know that if we meet in person I may interrupt a lot on accident so sorry in advance! I truly don’t mean to it’s just a bad habit that most people with ADHD have.
  5. I love to sing and am a member of my church choir
  6. I play two instruments. I’ll let you guess which two, but no cheating if you know me outside of the web
  7. I am currently getting my masters in children’s ministry
  8. In high school, I was the goody two shoes with a dash of spice. (Don’t get on my bad side lol)
  9. I’ve never lived outside of Texas (That needs to change!)
  10. My mother passed away when I was one year old leaving me to be raised by my grandparents (I call them my parents though and still have a relationship with my amazing biological father; I’m one lucky girl!)

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Reflection | Words Have Power

I’ve been thinking a lot about words. Whether it is for poetry, my diary or even this blog. They are so so powerful and I feel as though I have been reckless with what I have said or even written. My church had a prayer breakfast and the topic was about effective prayer, but then the amazing speaker started talking about gossiping as well. I felt so convicted although I never mean to gossip I find myself falling a victim to it. She also talked about not telling all of your business and well obviously with writing a lifestyle blog and trying to be as open and honest as possible I fail to do that too to some extent. However, I started thinking that maybe telling your business isn’t always a bad thing because a lot of times other’s stories help me so why can’t my story possibly help someone else.

I’ll be honest. Right now I feel like even though I’m trying so hard to change I can’t do it. Don’t get me wrong I can definitely change and be healed through Christ, but that’s the thing I haven’t been completely leaning on the LORD and that’s why I feel so terrible right now. I thought I was better and I am physically, but emotionally and spiritually I am drained. Mostly because of the decisions I chose to make, and there is genuine regret. The first step to healing is asking for forgiveness and I’ve done that. The second step is forgiving myself and I’m trying to get better at that.

The Holy Spirit has been so powerful this weekend. He made me humble myself and do things that I never thought I would do and I had fun doing it. Just stepping outside of your comfort zone just opens up a whole new world of opportunities that I would have regretted not taking before because of pride. He knows that my heart is heavy and I am finally ready to let him deliver me. Whoever he brings to give me the help I will say “Yes Please” and be grateful as well as glad about it. There is no shame in your game to need help and to ask for it. I’ve had to learn that the hard way, but you don’t have to do the same. I can already see God working on my frustrations and giving me rest and although things aren’t perfect I can still genuinely praise him no matter who is looking or who is saying what because they have no power over me anymore. I am so glad we serve a living God that will cast our sins as far as the east is from the west and gave his only begotten son to die for our sins. I have accepted Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior and I hope that you do too because it is never too late. He’s ready for you to just let him in and experience his grace and mercy just like I do; a sinner like me. I’m so glad I can talk to the Lord about anything myself and don’t have to go through anyone or anything else and he hears my cry and my call. The best part is he answers me and I know he will answer you too. Have a Blessed day!